Wednesday, June 3, 2009
A very sad story
It took me about thirty seconds to find this beautiful pink dress. It looked like something someone would wear in the 'Vanessa in the Garden' age (for those of you who watched Amazing Stories. If you didn't, the time was about 1800's). It was light pink and lacy, and it seemed like a fairy princess' gown.
Of course I tried it on.
It was so, so, so lovely... but the zipper, that darn zipper, just wouldn't zip! I've never considered myself skinny (Rosi is the tiny one in my family), but I've always been slim and it was rather surprising when I couldn't get that stupid zipper up my ribs! I still looked at myself in the mirror, though, and then I realized it was even more beautiful than I thought... the sleeves, instead of staying on my shoulders, draped down to my elbows... I looked so beautiful! I sucked, I pulled, I held my breath, I called Mommy in to pull at it... but it just wouldn't fit.
I almost cried!
Galaxy ;-)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
It's been a while, hasn't it?
And I'm awfully lazy.
Even more so with this terrible arthritis problem (and I haven't gotten better yet... ay-ay-ay, it's almost been a year now!).
But the other thing is that I'm terribly tidy. If a drawer isn't closed all the way, it drives me crazy. If the fringes on the carpet aren't smoothly facing one direction, I have to fix it, otherwise I sit (twitching) as I go absolutely mad. But I'm too lazy to get up for the most part, unless I happen to notice it when I'm already up.
That's another thing about me. I hate getting up, but when I already am standing I don't mind going somewhere or doing something as much, if at all. And I hate getting things set up. Like if all the sudden I appeared in front of the computer ready to type a post with my hands on the keyboard, I'd have hundreds (depending, of course, on how often this odd apparition occurred). If I appeared sitting in front of the piano, I'd practice. If I appeared with the Latin book by me and Dear Sister actually ready to practice (like that's ever gonna happen) I'd do it...
It's the getting up and going to the computer, the walking all the way to the piano, finding the Latin book and getting Rose to co-operate that I find hard. I guess that's why I never really succeeded when I tried Violin... I love the sound of it, and I think it's beautiful, and besides of the discomfort, I enjoy playing it... but tightening the horse hair and rosining the bow, tuning the strings and attaching the shoulder rest was just too much. I'm odd that way.
On a different topic, I really miss performing. I want to dance for people. I want to hear people applaud, and I want to make them laugh and cry. I want to become another person again... someone different, and I want to make people believe it. But I can't, because I can barely move throughout the day. I need to remember to take my Naproxum(sp?) Sodium (the medication that lessons the pain--it doesn't make it disappear).
It may seem odd that someone so lazy as I could want to dance and sing and perform, but that's different. Loosing myself in, moving to and singing with music (especially in front of others) has always been a part of me, and I miss that. I miss standing on my toes. And I miss plays. I miss being able to stand up in front of hundreds of people in the Youth Plays and making them think I'm someone else.
But I shouldn't dwell on the past, those are things I can't have now, and can't do any longer. Maybe, maybe some day I can perform for a crowd, or dance for the world again, but now I can't, and what really matters is that I did once. I lived my dream, if only so long ago. I had it, so I should merely be happy for that and not long for it. How many people get to live their dream at all, let alone before they're even a teenager?
I should think about Kings of Darkness: the Reining Night. Which will be done in June. WILL (I hope):
I've been editing it for a while now and have almost finished my first go-over. Dear Sister is reading it so I can get her opinion, and I plan to show it to a friend of mine who is drawing the map for me as soon as it's done.
Mainly, I can't wait to show my parents.
Who don't even like that genre.
But they'll read it anyway.
So, I guess that's all I really have to say... there were a couple other things I wanted to mention, but this post is getting way too long and I want to finish it before I go to D&D, which will be really soon.
So be expecting at least a couple more posts coming soon, and maybe I'll be posting more often now. It sure was nice to vent all this.
All my adoration to my dear readers,
Galaxy
Saturday, April 25, 2009
The Bells
Friday, April 17, 2009
Ladies and Gentlemen,
As you know, if you are a regular reader of my blog, for over a year (maybe even two, I'm not sure) I've been working on a book called 'King of Darkness: The Reigning Night'. Well, today, April 17th, 2009, I have finished my first draft of the book.
At first I was just typing... I'd made a pact with myself that I would finish this book soon, right after I got this one adventure out of the way. But there was this sentence, this one sentence that one of my characters said that I just didn't know where to go from from there. It was so complete, I didn't know what to type next, even though I had a vague idea of what I wanted to happen. And it was then I told Mommy about it, and she asked what the sentence was (and no, I'm not going to tell you what it is (and no, it's not that great, I'm just all excited about it because the first draft is done, it really isn't that fabulous)--you'll just have to BUY THE BOOK, MWAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!), and she said,
"Why don't you just end it there?"
And it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I could just end it there! That one sentence, that one sentence could be the last I'll ever type in that story! I just started screaming and I tell you, if I didn't have arthritis I would have jumped and danced. Instead I just rung my hands... oh, thank you god.
Of course, it's not done done, I've just finished my first draft, and I've got a lot of editing to do. I also wanted to get a map drawn of Glorsifil (the mythical continent I made up for this all to take place in) and illustrations done, but after that... We even found a place where I can publish it all, and if everything goes well, I might actually get it done before Christmas, just like I wanted! I'm so happy!
The funny thing is, once this is all done and over with, I'm going to start working on Kings of Darkness: A Glimmer of Light (the next book in the series) immediately. And the cycle will start all over...
Anyways, I'm just so so happy I had to post!
Love,
Galaxy
P.S. I do plan to post about Easter, but I'll probably be working on K.o.D. for a while, and I'm going over to Nana's house for the weekend, so don't expect it too soon.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Some Silly Cartoons
This is Collette Ussri. She's a bunch of lettuce. This is Cookie Brigton. She's a Chocolate Chip Cookie.
This is Ms. Chiquita Bana. She's a Banana.
The next bit is done sort of like a comic strip... Brother1 helped me with it, and it's sort of lame, but it was fun to do and I'd like to look back on it years in the future:
This is the un-named Pencil Wizard. If you have any suggestions (for his name), PLEASE comment them!
This is Mr. Cliff. He's a hanger (like a 'cliff hanger'...? Get it...?).
Brother1 drew this one. He's Mr. Pizza, and he's a pizza.
Well, there you go! Just some silly things Brother1 and I doodled at the beginning of spring... speaking of spring, I'm so happy that it's finally here! After Spring comes Summer! I love Summer!
Happy Spring and happy Doodling!
Galaxy
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
St. Patrick's Day--and I didn't even know it!
so I rearranged the letters and Nana made some new ones so it now read "Happy St. Pat's".
Daddy didn't even notice when he came home (and it was just his luck to be wearing green! He has troubles with colors, and I don't know how he lucked out when he didn't even know it was the day). I asked if his shirt constituted as green, Mommy said yes and I said 'Oh. Happy St. Patrick's Day, Daddy." Then I stared over his head at my sign until he looked up at it and started laughing.Galaxy
Friday, February 20, 2009
Friday Fillins #45
1. Give me something good to read and I'll devour it in four days or less.
2. Whenever I see the first star at night, I always make a wish, even if I don't think it'll come true--it worked for making Brother1&2!
3. I wish I didn't have arthritis, but I'll go through it with my head held high.
4. Daddy's Birthday Cake was the last thing I ate that was utterly delicious (yes, I do intend to post about his B-Day, but please don't be mad if that never happens).
5. To live in this world is a scary thing, but there are so many wonders and beauties... how could we not?
6. Other than this one, some blog I can't remember... oh, I know! Me In General (Dear Sister's Blog) is the last blog I commented on.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to spending the night at Nana's, tomorrow my plans include hanging out with Nana and Dear Sister and Sunday, I want to have fun with Daddy and the rest of the fam!
Have a great weekend!
Galaxy
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Happy Late Valentines Day!
Mom and Dad had their anniversary yesterday, and, as usual, they didn't do much. Nana came over for a while and we all hung out, but she couldn't stay long. Daddy went to the store with Mom and the Boys and bought some pizza (yes, still vegan--no cheese, no meat, and bunches of pineapple--for everyone except Daddy!), cookies, sparkling pomegranate cider, sparkling apple cider, smarties, chocolate, and chocolate covered almonds (because what's Valentine's Day without Chocolate?) while Dear Sister and I practiced Latin (I finally convinced her to do it with me! Yippi!) and watched a few shows.
Of course, by the end of the day we felt a little sick, but still, I had fun. We watched a new series we got from Netflix called The Triangle and it's actually pretty interesting. We're still trying to figure out what's going on.
I had a pretty good Valentine's Day, and I really hope Mommy and Daddy had a wonderful Anniversary! They really, really love each other, and almost every day I am so grateful to have parents who care about each other so very much.
My Valentine's Day was full of love... no, not romantic, though one day I hope it will... Yesterday (and always) I loved and was loved by my sister, Brother1 (who actually gave me three hugs!), Brother2 (who gave me a hug too, but mostly he was just really cute), Mommy, Daddy, and Nana.
Happy Valentines Day, anyone reading, I hope yours had much love. Happy Anniversary, Mommy and Daddy. You make my life wonderful.
Love,
Galaxy
Friday, February 13, 2009
Friday Fillins #44
1. It seems like I've always had Arthritis. Sometimes I sit down and wonder how it feels to be normal.
2. Won't you turn off the light when you're done, please?
3. If I thought you hurt my baby sister, I'd give NO MERCY!
4. Happiness is what I think of most when I think of you, my love.
5. To me, Valentine's Day means Mommy and Daddy have been married for another year! It'll be their anniversary tomorrow!
6. God gives me strength.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to hanging out, tomorrow my plans include celebrating Mom and Dad's anniversary and Sunday, I want to have a good time!
Have a great weekend!
Galaxy
Sunday, February 8, 2009
My First Speech
Anyways, we were told to write up an "Icebreaker"... a speech to tell people about yourself. When I got home I wrote it in 14 minutes, then spent the rest of the week trying to memorize it. I worked really hard and performed it for my family a couple times.
Here's how it went (with a bit of editing so I could post it):
I've always thought life was wonderful. And I hated it when people didn't. I hated it when people thought life was terrible, and were sad because of it. So I tried to make them happy, I tried to make them enjoy life, and seeing these people enjoying life means that life is wonderful... In other words, I love to see people smile.
Even better is making people smile... To know that I, if even only for a shadow of a moment, made that person happy, can make me beam.
So my whole life I've tried to make people smile... First I did ballet. Who doesn't love the graceful movements of a dancer? And when I performed, I knew there were people, there in the audience, watching me, and I knew they were smiling... and I smiled my grandest just to make sure. Smiles, I've found, are contagious.
Then I turned to acting. I've always loved acting, especially in musicals, because I can dance, and sing, and act all in one, and make people laugh, cry, and most importantly, smile.
I was in a play every summer--and more--for three years. I went to ballet four days a week and ran wild with my friends, my little sister and my new little brothers. Times were good... happy, smiley--more than a little busy, but oh so happy...
Well, all good things must come to an end! And it was the one summer I chose not to do a play--so I could spend more time with family--that I caught rheumatoid arthritis. Arthritis is always something I've associated with 230-year-olds (they laughed at that point), not dancing 13-year-olds... but now I have to associate it with myself.
I have a hard time moving now, and even worse I can't dance. I can't even jump, let alone stand on my toes like I used to... but I have to keep smiling. I have to keep making others smile.
I can't stress enough how much my family means to me... I don't know how I could... how I can get through this if I didn't have my mom, my dad, my sister and my little brothers... and it was these people, the people I care about most, who helped me find other ways to make people smile.
I write now. I write stories that will one day sail out into the world like little ships. The book I'm currently working on is called Kings of Darkness: The Riening Night and hopefully one day people will read it, and laugh, and cry... and smile.
I also play Piano. I've always needed music--that was one of the reasons I loved to dance... I used to be one with it, but now, I create it. I hope to be a master pianist, and make others smile that way.
Dear Sister and I also do duets together for my family... it always brings a smile to their face, and sometimes even to others too.
So through ballet to acting to writing to singing to piano, I've tried my best to make others smile, because seeing people happy can make me beam.
My name is Galaxy, and my life is strange and wonderful. I hope this speech has made you smile. Thank you.
I got a little nervous on the day I actually had to do it. I didn't think it'd be that bad, though, because I've performed in bunches of plays and loved it, so I thought this would be easy.
Wrong.
When it was finally my turn (I was last, by the way), and I got up there, I couldn't speak. I saw them all staring at me, and I didn't know what to do. The guy that held the timer nodded at me to show that he was ready, so I just smiled as big as I possibly could, and tried to make eye contact with every single person in the room to buy time. Finally, I started.
Normally, when I perform on stage, I'm a little nervous before I go on, but the moment I get on stage it all melts away. It was different with this. The more I talked, the more nervous I got. By the time I sat down in my chair (after a loud applause, thankfully) my heart felt like it was pounding out of my chest and I could hardly breathe.
I've done a lot of thinking about that, and I think I've pinpointed why that was so much harder than acting for me... When I act, it's not me. It's the character saying those things. I might be nervous at first, but when I get on stage it isn't me anymore, it's my character, and she does it all, so if I mess up, no one knows, and if people judge my character harshly, it's not me they're judging.
If I'm giving a speech, it's actually me they're watching. It's me they're judging, and by the end of the speech they'll have formed an opinion of me. If I mess up, something I say might come out wrong, and how they see me might change.
I still had fun, though. Even though it was different than acting or dancing it was nice to spill out my life to people, to give them a piece of me... It was also nice to perform for someone... it's been too long.
Anyways, that was my first speech! Thank you for reading, and I hope you're smiling!
Galaxy

